Perhaps I am not religious because I was not brought up to be so. Not that my parents didn't believe in God but because they were not the type of religious people that attended church. My mother is now 75 years old and believes with utter certainty that there is a God. She is not big on religion but please don't tell her that God doesn't exist. She believes in God, but in her own way. To tell her that there is no God is to invite argument. I know this well for we have argued about it many times. I have never been able to change her belief that some kind of God exists. Not that I wanted to change her mind. She is free to believe what she wishes as is everyone else. Now at the ripe old age of 75 she deserves whatever comfort a belief in God can bring to her.
It's just that an atheist and a theist cannot talk about God and religion without it turning into an argument. I have found this to be true with everyone who is religious to any degree. To say, "I am an atheist," to a group of friends or worse strangers, is to invite an argument on the existence of God and the importance of religion. Most people seem to be religious to some extent. Even if they are just deists and not a follower of any particular religion. I can't remember or give an accurate account of how many times i have found myself having a religious argument since I was in my late teens. They have been numerous. Frankly, I am tired of arguing with religious people over whether God exists or not. You can't change their minds and they can't change yours. It is usually an exercise in futility. It is very hard to change a persons belief system.
Now at the age of 55, I find that I know nothing. There are so many things I do not know. Things that perhaps can never be known to man. The problem is there are no answers to the big questions of life. No matter how much you beat your head against the wall. Or how much you study religion, philosophy, ethics, morality, evolution and all the other sciences. There is still no definitive answer to the big questions. Questions such as, "What is the meaning of life?" Does God exist? Do humans have a higher purpose besides living and dying? What happens after we die? Do we have a soul? Is there a spiritual realm that we are unaware of? All these questions and more go unanswered.
We simply lack the knowledge and or technology to unlock these answers. Quite possibly some day mankind will progress to a point where some of these questions can be answered. Technology, evolution or space aliens may give us the answers to these most important age old life questions. Until such a time we are left wanting. We are left unknowing. Left with the big questions and no answers. Perhaps mankind will never find definitive answers to these particular questions. There well may be no answers. I do not know. But it breaks my heart when I pursue them and find only a brick wall.
The God lovers can't prove that God exists. Atheists can't prove that God doesn't exist. It's a stalemate and the religious nutters are winning. They control almost everything. It is a very unsatisfactory state of affairs. Especially as an atheist.
I suppose over the years I have become an agnostic atheist who despises religion. I don't know if God exists for I have no definitive information for or against his existence. However, I don't believe that he does. Everything I know points to the fact that God does not exist. For better or worse, along the way I have learned to dislike religion and the devoutly religious. I think I hate God too. For he is not the God he should be. It's all rather depressing. I think I shall close this introduction now and go off and ponder the big questions some more. For all the good it will do me, it's time to beat my head against the wall yet again. Thank you for listening to my ramblings. I had a real need to say this to others who would understand how I feel. Peace to all.
Edited by Great Ape, 02 January 2012 - 05:04 PM.

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